Alhamdulillah, My Story Became To Muallaf.

Year 2016 is full of wisdom for me. At this year, I started a new life as a Muslim. This is the guidance of Allah on me and I am very thankful for that, Alhamdulillah. Now, I am more secure in my conscience choice. I am ready physically and spiritually. Including running commands and avoid His prohibitions.

My name is Maulida Ayunita, born in Nancy German, 26 years ago. I came from a fairly devout Christian Catholic. Nonetheless, our family is actually not very democratic in matters of religion.

I just reverted this year as I said earlier, it was a beautiful experience and it has become a challenge since. Pheww….

I found Islam in the most natural way; it was because of Prophet Muhammad SAW. As a former Christian, I was told that the Prophet was a pedophile. He married a child, Aishah – and this, I use as my ammo to backfire the Muslims who tried to talk me into Islam.

One day, I was just googling about life, inspirations, and stuff like that because I was feeling very empty when I stumbled upon a tumblr that has all the inspirational quotes I needed, and they were all quoted by Prophet Muhammad SAW. I bookmarked that page and after a few months, I started to question about him, and thus began my journey towards Islam—This happened few years ago, 6 years ago, I guess?

I love Islam and I love Allah.

But still. 26 years of being a Catholic cannot vanish overnight, and I don’t want it to. I am Dusunese by ethnicity, it’s just that I’m a Muslim.

I wanted to start learning to read the Quran. I thought I could learn via internet, and it was ok at first, I managed to memorize Al-fatihah, Al-Ikhlas, Al-falaq, An-nas and all other doas in a prayer. But I went to a few Muslim convention a few months back and the Ustaz/Ustazah said that if we don’t read the words properly, it will bring different meanings and our prayers may not be accepted, since we read everything wrongly.

I didn’t know why I haven’t thought of that.

Allah has blessed me with life, Islam, opportunities, and many more, but just because I don’t want to satisfy people’s expectations of me being a revert, I have turned away from His commands (sometimes, before this). I was waiting to see other people change into my expectations – that’s the truth.

But life is given by Him, and He can take it anytime, anywhere. I’ve read the Quran’s translations and even though I didn’t memorize enough, I know that if we were given a knowledge, we should act upon it because if we ignore it, it will make us among the hypocrites. nauzubillah..

Now, I am wearing tudung. I also trying to get used to wearing long sleeves and socks. It’s not as easy as I hoped. But it’s the right thing to do! I have to suck it up, go through it day by day, and inshaa Allah it’ll be a breeze.

Alhamdulillah.